Lancelot on the other hand has done everything in his power to ensure my safe return and happiness. He has sacrificed himself and almost gave up his own life in my name. Lancelot has shown a complete and utter devotion to me, not just as a loyalty to the King and his crown but to me in my own right. And these things have provoked feelings in me that I had not experienced until the bravest of knights brought them out in me. It is possible that some people call it love, but I would argue that is much more than love alone. My feelings for Lancelot go beyond mere romantic love that has the capacity to ebb and flow. My feelings are a mirror of the unwavering devotion I have been shown. It would have been cruel for me to hold back anything from a knight that has done more than expected of a mere mortal. Our love and devotion for each other transcend the bonds of marriage. But by controlling myself upon the return of my brave knight, I was able to make a sacrifice for him, I was able to endure my own pain for his benefit. What good would come to either of us if our shared past was brought into the light? It would bring ruin to us both. And so I reasoned that by keeping still now, we would one day be free to love again.
And alas, it is my deepest wish that all in this kingdom can move beyond Lancelot's transgression in relation to the cart. I would hold that he has done much more with his life than merely taken a ride in a cart. He has proven himself a brave and gallant beyond measure. I pray that these noble attributes become his new legacy.